I am not a writer, fact. I am though a overthinker. Welcome to my blog, my therapy and my space to explore the written word.
I used to be very shallow, I can be analytical, opinionated and fickle. I might think something of a morning and have changed my mind by the evening; I could be completely wrong. I obsess and I dramatise.You've been forwarned. Enjoy ;-D
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After energy cleansing at Chalice Well in Glastonbury yesterday I can feel my soul craving the connection to our natural world. Therefore, with a clear sky of stars above me and my inner witch chattering away in my head about the upcoming Scorpio super moon I thought why not, let’s make time to write something other than essays!
Tuesday the 27th of April will see a super moon, which occurs as the Moon is particularly close to the Earth, reaching the fullest point at 1:31pm. The Pink Moon christened by Native American folklore signifies the blooming of flowers in the Northern Hemisphere.
In my mind’s eye, I see blossom, blossom at dusk. The fresh new plants are opening up and I feel that should resonate with our own intentions starting to come into first bloom at this point in the year, moving with the Wheel of the Year, rather than against it creates a sense of protection and of purpose.
This powerful super moon will contain the impact of Scorpio, intensifying present emotions and encouraging introspection. Expect existential conversations from people and avoid those who may possibly have that sting in their tail for you. For some, The Pink Moon could bring you a beautiful realisation with uncertainties fading away or a path becoming clear to you. Many more will be feeling romantic or passionate or perhaps just lusty!
Water signs, beware of jealousy, control issues and remember to have some time out of your own head, and Leo there could be a possibility of feeling restricted, weigh it up, are you restricted, or do you need some time to yourself built into your day? Fire signs overall, not just Leo could struggle with the oppressive energy so make time for those friends, hobbies, or goals that make your soul sing.
Thanks for reading, and fingers crossed we get to gaze at a powerful pink super moon over the next two nights.
I run a therapeutic writing group for adults accessing mental health services. The group was particularly small today, so we improvised and did a spot of creative writing with a prompt sentence instead of the writing for wellness. Worth a try for those interested in writing or those that need a break from social media! Prompt is below…write a short story? I’ve shared mine below.
It could never happen again…
That’s what I thought it could never happen again, could it?
The first time around, it was just getting lost in the moment, inexperienced, reckless, and youthful. ‘It won’t happen to me’. Well, I was wrong about that, it resulted in a sharp exit from my carefree world. Dancing the night away and into the early hours with Lucy, was swiftly replaced with a little bundle of responsibility nestled in my arms until the morning light. Meeting Kelly at the gym after we had a particularly taxing row of shifts had turned into coffee while juggling a restless baby and wearing elasticated waistbands before my 20’s had even started. Far too early, but never a mistake, my little surprise propelled me into a world of mum guilt and sacrifice.
Nowadays she has to look down to see into my face and her ‘little’ brother…well he dwarfs us both, even the twins have nearly completed primary school. It’s twenty-five years later and I’m holding my breath thinking about the consequences of my actions once more. Just a careless moment of madness and here we are again! Do I have the energy to do this once more? Doubtful as I didn’t have the energy to get up before noon last weekend!
Memories cascade through my head, first foods, first steps, wobbly teeth, tumbles, and trips and windows covered in sticky handprints. Santa, living room gymnastics, and potty training. Some of my friends are Nannas now, but no not me…fool! Do I really want to do this all again?
There’s just me at home now and the children obviously, but even the youngest ones aren’t in single figures anymore! The career with a soul that I much longed for throughout my marriage was now a reality, obtained through blood, sweat and tears after said marriage ended. I am fulfilled, secure, and content these days, well usually.
But right now, I’m sat on the floor of the toilets instead, the meeting room directly adjacent, empty now after a successfully busy group session. Lively, supportive discussion the best type of session in my humble opinion…
I glance over at the familiar white plastic stick on the corner of the sink, thinking about the little window on it that will reveal the two pink lines that define the future. Swallowing down the panic, I rise to my feet slowly taking those few steps towards the poignant object, wondering how I’m going to tell him or the kids! I can already imagine Freya’s horrified face already, ‘Mum…really?’
I get to the sinks looking at my reflection in the mirror, long wavy hair, glinting with an abundance of silver streaks, a few lines etched around my eyes and forehead now, evidence of a life being lived and what I had thought as wisdom creeping in. Oh, the irony!
I look down at that familiar-looking stick and I inhale deeply before seeing…one line. Just one line, gutted! Maybe next time, I chuckle!
In our mainstream society, it often feels like the extroverted personality types (as defined by Carl Jung in the 1960’s) are the people who life favours. In short, Jung (the Daddy of psychology as we know it) believed that the extroverted personality draws energy from the external world and from large groups of people. The introverted personality relies more on regular time alone. What energises an extrovert does the exact opposite for an introvert; a dose of introspection recharges this individual much more than a party!
It is worth remembering that these personality aspects do appear as a spectrum rather than us being either one or the other, in a lot of us though. In a nutshell the more extroverted you are, the more excitement you need to thrive; where as the more introverted you are, the less stimulation you need to support your wellbeing.
It does not mean an introvert does not like people or an extrovert cannot be good at planning! It does mean that biologically an introvert get less of a feelgood hit than an extrovert does when spending time with other people.
There is scientific evidence to show that there are structural differences in the brains of the two personality types. A thicker frontal cortex means the introvert has the advantage in impulse control and in addition, planning or deeper thought patterns. In sharp contrast to this, the dopamine high that the extrovert craves and then receives, when pushing a boundary or connecting with others, means this personality type is less likely to suffer from depression or anxiety conditions. A gambling problem or an escapism behaviour is arguably more likely for this type of personality, though!
Our usual society’s framework has an obvious bias towards the more extroverted personality. Networking effectively on the career ladder, cementing friendship groups and drawing useful people in with their vibrant and open personality; they often seem to have the pick of partners, the high flying careers and a more positive outlook on life. For a less extroverted personality looking in, life could seem to be taken all in the extrovert’s stride, and the introverted struggles to get heard, let along get ahead! Luckily this is where the deeper thinking comes in handy, a lot of us are creative or soul searchers; connecting with less people perhaps but on a more fulfilling level, one could argue.
So we knew where we stood individually and also the society we inhabited along with its bias; having plenty of years to build our own space within the parameters meant a lot of us knew who we were and where we fitted but now what has happened? Oh yes, Covid-19 has happened. Aspects of life have changed dramatically for us all.
At first it seemed that, society was shifting for the first time towards a temporary framework that would support a more introverted person to thrive; no more having to invent excuses not to attend the work night bingo or the school mum’s night out. An opportunity to work from home perhaps? I personally have finally got a company interested enough in my writing to want me to write for them. For free, but it’s a start!
Anyway, so endless humorous memes for the introverted of us later, aspects of our new existence has moved along with the extroverts enthusiastic need to connect and ‘do’.
For the more introverted, quiet evenings to read or chat with our loved ones are already being lost under endless group chats, where very little is said and with people we rarely see in normal life. Neighbours we didn’t choose to interact with before, are now acosting us on the doorstep to discuss the latest (and smallest) developments of the coronavirus in the last 24 hours. It’s still an extroverted world even in lockdown!
In addition to this many households are housing a mixture of personality types, it’s rather unlikely that a whole household will hold all extroverted or introverted personality under one roof. An introverted partner when you’re missing both work and your friends/family or a household of extroverted children when you’re used to having the house to yourself for peace and quiet, could very easily become a living nightmare. So what can you do, other than ‘doing a Bart and Homer’ situation on your little ones?
This is where individual self care still comes in. Who are you? What do you need for your positive mental health?
I have always thought of myself as an introvert that can masquerade quite easily as a confident extrovert but this means I can experience ‘burnout’ frequently, due to saying yes when I mean no!
For those of you that are intrigued by the personality types, these two are just the tip of the iceberg. Check out this link for a detailed insight into your personality type. It’s free and takes around 12 mins. https://www.16personalities.com/free-personality-test
Once you know what you need, you can take the steps to ensure you stay as mentally healthy as you can in lockdown. Tips from me are…
Fulfilling my personal needs – I say no to the third zoom group conversation from vague friendship groups and I explain to my children that my uninterrupted time alone is important for me to stay well to look after them. As far as I’m concerned taking an hour out from entertaining my kids to quietly read is ok!
Communicating – with your family, openly and honestly without blame. An extroverted personality may need to join ‘House Party’ – the social app, but an introverted person might not need to join their spouse. Talk about differences and how to support yourself and each other.
Prioritising – I personally need to stay updated from my close family but I don’t need to know the ins and outs of every person’s struggles with lockdown. So I group chat with my Mum and sister but I don’t go scrolling through social media talking the issues over, with my whole news feed.
Acceptance – Try to stay in the here and now as much as possible. No one really knows what is going to happen. Mindfulness techniques or meditation can help with this.
The best tip and one I don’t always stick to is keep a balance – activities we need to do, activities we want to do and communal activities with those that we live with. Balance is often the key to most things!
This is the first time I’ve put my coronavirus thoughts into written words for a week. What is happening?
Well the government measures have strengthened, with the British public only being allowed to leave home for; one exercise session a day, essential shopping for us or a vulnerable person and key workers to go to work and back.
For our family the release of the financial support (in particular the 80% wages paid through companies but by the government) gave us some much needed relief from my original gut wrenching panic, of ‘ how are we going to pay the rent’. Combined with this and some clever budgeting we shouldn’t be made homeless by the crisis.
But I feel that for a lot of us this was just the most pressing worry rather than the only problem, I found out from the robust information released a week later, than in fact I was a person at higher risk of complications due to my lifelong asthma condition.
The government have issued the advice that on top of everyone being instructed to follow social distances measures that a high risk person, needs to self isolate for a 12 week period with the people I live with ‘shielding’ me further with strict measures themselves. This for us has caused a severe upward spike in our anxiety and related mental health conditions in the household plus our extended family.
Primarily I panicked, phoned husband insisting he speaks to his manager, putting himself forward for the furlough straight away. I didn’t feel that he was quite understanding that for me, the coronavirus could well mean a spell in an understaffed hospital that doesn’t have enough equipment. This was what the headlines and news channels were bombarding the public with at this time. Having rectified this my husband was home by the end of the day, but we had more to consider with our children’s welfare…
My three children live with us full time, the eldest an 18 year old has fairly severe mental health issues (Borderline Personality Disorder, stages more severe than my own) combined with being higher functioning ASD. (Asperger’s Syndrome) Then I have a nearly 13 year old son and a six year old daughter, both of which are listened under the SENCO teams at their respective schools. Autistic traits and memory problems meaning they need a little more support than the neurotypical children with their lessons.
In addition to this my husbands two daughters, aged 14 and 8, have two different mothers that are support workers (therefore key workers) caught right in the middle of our country’s crisis. He had to make the serious decision of either having his daughters to live here, adjusting to a completely different family set up or having a period of separation where we would only be able to video message each other. Neither case is without stress, I might add and these stresses are typical of the blended family unit.
The younger daughter we share 50/50 custody with Mum and the eldest we have had a trial period of her living with us, but it didn’t work out. So we have her to stay alternative weekends.
The girls at first decided to stay with their respective Mums. After a few days, Mum of the younger one realised there was just no way she could fulfil both the expectations of her job in a psychiatric hospital and keeping her daughter safe, stimulated and happy so with a lot of distress; Mum has decided that the little one with come to live with us until the schools go back to normal arrangements.
My eldest daughter who had seemed to be coming out of her last crisis state, although not resorting to her coping mechanism of self harm thank heavens, has had a deterioration in her overall mental health.
Trying to work with the changes to her routine as well as not seeing her favourite person (her boyfriend) because of my health and her boyfriends job (key worker) is really demanding for her and us around her. Restrictions to being able to see her usual understanding doctor, and another doctor not agreeing with the medication she is on currently, has been very stressful just this afternoon.
Personally I am currently dealing with immense amounts of guilt, partly due possibly to my own mental health problems but in no small way because of the implications of covorvirus. It is because of my health problems that my husband is not able to see his eldest daughter, my youngest step daughter’s mother cannot share care of her daughter, and my eldest daughter has to make these extra sacrifices. On top of this I’m trying to educate my two other children who are at very different stages in education. No mean feat I assure you!
I had a couple of days where my sleep was non existent, and my anxiety sky high, this resulted in a serious panic attack on waking up. I do already take citalopram to support my mental health, so I considered an increase of medication but after considerable thought I don’t want the side effects of adjusting to a new dose and I’m also feeling the ‘we’re all in this together’ vibe over social media.
So what I am using to support my mental health amidst corona panic?
• Planning.
– I’ve organised for my children to spend next week with their father, step mother and little sister, so I can enjoy the postive side to self isolation. I’m an avid reader and I also like to write creatively, which is difficult with so many people around. – I’ve worked out a lesson schedule, also adding my children’s learning platforms ‘Microsoft teams and Google classrooms’ to my phone/tablet. – I’ve also ordered easier versions of books that I enjoy and that relate to the childrens learning, so I can share them with my little one who is exploring Victorian England (Alice in Wonderland/Oliver Twist) and my middle one who is studying Shakespeare (Much Ado about Nothing)
•Spirituality
I have less time to myself so I’ve started to explore my pagan roots with the younger children, this week we’ve attempted a therapeutic drum circle and I’ve explained how they work.
• Time out for activities that are just fun!
I take time out in another room to play dragon vale (a game on my phone). No stress, no expectations…simple and achievable. Download on Google Play or I player.
• Connection
Staying connected even now when it is a virtual connection rather than a physical one. My husband is video messaging his daughter, my children their father and I stay in regular contact with my mother and sister by this means too.
• Self Care
Having the extra time as a family has meant I can cook without the same haste as normal. This extra time means I can focus on cooking from scratch and showing the children how meals are made. We are also sticking to a routine of getting up, washed, and dressed with periods of study as well as activity and fun. But we now get to change back into our pyjamas if we feel like it as well 😂!
All in all I feel the coronavirus is bound to bring up difficult emotions, for us all. So knowing that these emotions are normal, we all need to deal with them the best way we can. This is essential.
We’re also making history!
I personally believe that good can come out of this situation too. Less fuel emissions as we cut down travel, personally focusing on family life not just work, realising who in our society are actually essential to the infrastructure (clue – it’s not people with the big bucks that we can’t do without right now! ), less discrimination for people needing to use the welfare system (as lots more of us will need that lifeline). Hopefully a new awareness of supporting the vulnerable as a society not just as individuals will emerge?
This is my third piece of writing regarding the Coronavirus and the mass induced panic that surrounds us at the moment. It is clearly impacting on society’s mental wellbeing and for me being quite an introspective type of human I’ve been turning it over in my mind for weeks!
Should I be keeping the children at home to access their learning packs online rather than attending their schools? How about postponing my volunteer work until the crisis passes? Am I no longer going to see my parents as they’re also carers of Mum’s elderly parents? How about self isolation? My children’s Dad (we’re divorced) and his family are self isolating does that mean we have to as well…and where does that leave my step children, my husbands daughters who live in two more separate households?
I personally don’t feel the threat of an imminent virus has triggered anxiety responses as much as the pandemic of worry around me has. Writing this on the 19th march 2020, it has infiltrated every corner of my life.
My adult daughter a user of mental health services, had started to worry about everywhere I was going even before the government updates appeared yesterday. I’m asthmatic so my offspring knew she had a valid point!
I also volunteer as an assistant group facilitator with Second Step, in local community support groups; which entails travelling around the Bristol and Weston areas on public transport, frequently. As it happened the recent government guidelines annouced yesterday made that decision for me, as Second Step has postponed its groups for a minimum of two weeks following the release of the statement. So that was a waste of brain power, trying to decide what to do 😂!
Following this email from SS, husband returned home from work, monotone and surly; as he is ‘just fed up of the one and only topic of conversation’. Possibly working alongside my anxious cousin and talkative workmates was a feat in itself for a man of few words!
I’ve decided with my daughters help (I’m a writer not a media producer 😂) to create a you tube video; exploring a day in my life living with the threat of the corona virus in the air. We have the impact of local community visuals, some thought provoking words from my family and friends sharing how it is affecting them, and also how it feels for the children caught up in it. We’ve captured some tv gold from their perspective!
‘The Coronavirus and mental health – A personal perspective’ a personal blog for Second Step; has turned into a larger than anticipated project with the above mentioned vlog, plus two more videos!
We have personal stories of living the coronavirus panic plus an interview with a mental health group facilitator talking about the impact it’s having on her vulnerable service users in the Oregan state of America. They are around two weeks ahead of us with the protection measures so its very interesting to see how individuals are supporting their own and each others mental health needs while on lockdown.
Coronavirus and mental health (Vlog 3) – We’re all in this together – Thoughts from England and America. https://youtu.be/FDjH0KcTH-c .
Coronavirus and mental health (vlog 4) – Practicing what I preach. Job losses and illness. https://youtu.be/cJRmAbIrfR4
In conclusion of this project I strongly advise us all…
• To practice our self care to support personal wellbeing
• To turn off panic driven social media and news stories, staying informed via helpful websites
• To remember this is a strategy to stagger infection of a virus protecting our NHS. Ensuring there’s available resources for vulnerable people in our community not a zombie plague!!
The corona virus is currently sweeping though western society leaving chaos and desvastation in its wake. The general public; savvy industrial folk that we are, have entered into full panic preparation mode. Toilet rolls (and pasta!) at the ready, the mass shopping exodus a distant memory, we’ve locked up the elderly and we’re debating that perhaps the primary schools at least should be shutdown for a while! Well it makes sense right, it makes sense to be scared, doesn’t it?
Well in truth, we’re actually seeing the psychological impact on a society that is feeling out of control. The COVID-19 virus is an unknown virus, and we are biologically triggered to protect ourselves from the unknown. Unfortunately our bodies don’t know the difference between running from an attacking animal or worrying about a health threat; therefore the flight or fight response is stimulated in either case. Very useful in a situation where we need to run away faster or to protect ourselves from an imminent threat, not so useful when dealing with a mind full of worry about an illness we’re convinced lurks around every corner!
Reassuringly however, although it is an unknown virus, it is a virus that is very similar to many others that both the medical professionals and we personally, deal with on a weekly basis. In fact its very similar to a cold virus…
We know what a cold virus brings, they’re not nice but we know how to look after ourselves and how to minimise infecting others. Keep our hands clean with proper hand washing, and cough into elbows. Unwell people need rest and hydrating. Vulnerable folk are still the same people who would be vulnerable to a nasty cold. But highlighting these practical points in the press seem to be adding to the generalised worry of many in our society, rather than alleviating it.
Panic buying in Britain
There is an additional concern for those of us who suffer with anxiety- related mental health conditions, as we’re already inbuilt with a rather sensitive trigger switch which reacts quickly and strongly with these perceived threats. High levels of emotional stress, over a considerable time period is not good for either our minds or bodies; irrelevant of what thoughts are causing the stress reflex.
So what can we do if that is us?
First and foremost stop incessant checking! Social media is not helpful in these situations, so move away from the screen. If you must check, use an medically informed site. Maybe this one from the NHS. The majority of us don’t need to do frequent check ins, by all means stay aware and follow the health advice but do so selectively… https://www.nhs.uk/conditions/coronavirus-covid-19/
We at Second Step, also champion the importance of connection. Social connection keeps our perspective in check, it’s much easier to let your worries get the better of you when we’re not with others. Many of our courses and wellbeing groups focus on stress management techniques which are ideal to implement in times of such as these. One of Second Step’s key aims is to help put you back in control, which is exactly what a person lost in a process of anxiety needs. Let’s also not underestimate how much well shared joke can help, especially when our mind is running amok!
Practicing hearing your feelings and putting a more productive thought process in place, can be useful. Write them down perhaps, and then put them away?
Perhaps giving yourself a twenty minute window to explore the updates, thinking freely but telling your mind that is the set time allocated. If the thought processes then emerge at another time, remind yourself of your window and employ distraction techniques.
In particular practical distraction such as cleaning, may allivate the symptoms, as you’re working with the human instinct of needing to do something when in the threat of crisis. A thought diary can also be a useful tool.
For me, when dealing with anxiety related symptoms I need to ground myself, reminding myself that the world still goes on and the elements are bigger than my worries. I use getting out into nature as a mindfulness exercise. If I was feeling particularly turbulent I would head somewhere (Sand Bay or Brean Down Fort) where the wind is likely to be roaring and the water shows its power. I find nature’s ferocity calms both my mind and my soul.
All in all, simple hygiene measures are a great idea but psychological distress is not. So don’t suffer alone, keep talking, and stay aware of your own mental health needs.
Anyone that has been living with or fighting an anxiety issue, would probably be aware of a part of your recovery plan that is focused on comfort zones. I felt like blogging on the subject right now as I’m currently sat on a platform in Bristol Temple Meads, it probably doesn’t sound much to the more adventurous of you lot and wouldn’t have sounded like anything to a 14 year old invincible me either! But right now under the surface of the quirky middle aged woman there is the subsiding of a heightened fear emotion giving way to a small element of self worth. Do you know what? I fought anxiety today and I won! Which has left me pondering on how is the most useful way of tackling the comfort zones that anxiety restricts us into, lurking by as we move silently and progressively into a smaller box than we used to inhabit in years gone by?
Teenaged me jumped on and off public transport without a care in the world, places to go and people to see and all that. I’m unsure when it was that young me was smothered under the trials of life but it had happened before my twenties were out. I am also definitely one of those people that is so adept at wearing a metaphorical mask, that many won’t be aware of my own personal mental health journey only my fascination with psychology and my desire to support others who are struggling with that aspect of their own lives in a holistic way.
I’m currently working for Second Step mental health services in an unpaid position, with the sincere hope of securing paid work; where my passion lies. After fourteen years in retail, a fair bit of studying and now volunteering, it’s a case of working hard to successfully change career direction. Anyway so a group facilitator volunteer position was offered, and started; mandatory online training completed; my colleague then informed me of the dates of more specialised face to face training.
After two plus years of college courses, a short lived job in a secondary school and an unsuccessful stint of building my own sex toy business, it would be fair to say that I don’t have any issues meeting new people and getting chatting. I’m one of those nerds that loves to take whatever courses I can find that don’t cost me too much to do! So plenty of practice, an avid psychological interest in human nature and a tendency to chat the ears of anyone who listens means that meeting new folk doesn’t bother me. So what’s the problem? Well Second Step is based in Bristol and I am…well I’m not! I will need to get myself where I need to be, facing a bigger train station and using my sense of direction (one of my less developed skills) to then get me to the city based building I need to be in! At 9.30 after the smallest family member has gone to breakfast club!
I’m also really short so this is my view on rush hour at the train station!
So with plenty of time (green tick for good planning and a lift to the train station from my long suffering husband) I got on a busy (I don’t like busy, I’m a country girl!) bigger than normal train going in a different direction from my normal routes. Heart beating a fair bit faster, and clutching my life saving phone with the trainline app and Google maps staring out from my screen, plus my husband writing on the messenger screen a number of postive messages, I found it wasn’t that tough and that I have in fact ‘got this’ .
Finding my destination early securing an iced latte from a hip (sorry I’m getting old) little coffee shop, who delivered the goods with my name on it and a smile!! I was sat outside where I need to be, writing some musings in one of my special books. Happy days!
A bit of factual info for those are interested. It is thought that stepping out of your comfort zones, will eventually reduce anxiety so that’s why it it often included in a anxiety reducing pathway. Exposure to the feelings of fear, tension gives you the opportunity of…
1. Getting used to experiencing and thus learning to control these normal emotions that are present in us all.
2. Putting a postive spin on perceived ‘negative emotions’. I.e this uncomfortable feeling gives me highented adrenaline so I can achieve what I’m trying to achieve today.
3. Expanding your life from the basic human existence into a life well lived. Exploring new hobbies, new places, making new connections and so on.
I personally feel, to utilise the comfort zone theory, it’s a case of little and often. You don’t need to sky dive if you don’t fancy it but doing a little bit of something new regularly, works towards a life well lived even with supporting an anxiety issue.
So you see… I’m edgy now, who would know I’m not a city slicker! 😉
Kara 1 Anxiety 0. Take that life goals!
Feel good coffee from the people that know your name.
I’ve fancied writing about this subject for a while but with a week off work I’ve got a bit of time to do so…
Anyway plenty of people in the spiritual tribe are attuned to the idea of a natal chart (ie the alignment of the planets in each astrological sign having an impact on our karmic blueprint) well this subject relates to the idea of the moon’s phase that an individual was both under, also having an influence on our personality. Using a few sources soul and spirit magazine, an article by Marion Williamson plus spacefem.com not to mention my own intuition I’ve come up with an article to discover our own lunar destiny!
So first step find out what phase the moon was in at your time of birth and then check in to see if you can relate to the info below… (I’ll pop it on the page)
Each night a changing amount of light is reflected by the moon due to where it is on its dance between the sun and Earth. We’ve got eight phases. New Moon, First Crescent, First Quarter, Waxing Gibbous, Full Moon (me…surprise surprise), Waning Gibbous/Disseminating, Last Quarter, and Balsamic. Let me know what you are and I’m interested to find out if it relates at all. 😃
New Moon babies
A new moon person has a fundamental need to shine, to create, to be admired…a tendency to have a lot of courage and a need for the limelight. An adventurous personality it makes for a spontaneous exciting personality. On the flip side of this an extremely hard worker who can end up in crazy situations far to often and struggle with belonging as they’re not one to let the moss grow under their feet.
First Crescent babies
This is usually a gentle personality, one that finds it easy to see the beauty in life, likely to have a grounded happy family life in one way or another. Comfortable and calm but on the other side of this a person that may be haunted by many missed opportunities over the years as leaving the safe life was too frightening. There’s also a danger of living in the past or future and letting the present drift by.
First quarter babies
Ha, ha, ha. This person respects chaos magick!! Exciting, dynamic and thrives on chaos, a non conformist who can sometimes be the root of their own problems. Tends to be attracted to unstable people and situations, life is one hell of a ride!! This person benefits from slowing down from time to time and thinking before they act…but they don’t tend to do that much!
Waxing Gibbous babies
This moon phase lends itself to a person with a subconscious that somehow knows the moon is ‘nearly there’ they want to know everything…yesterday!! An analytical mind who sees the whole picture, sharp and a perfectionist to boot. These individuals can be so clouded with self doubt that problems easily magnify…the person really has to work hard on contentment as at times it feels like as hard as flying to the moon!
Full Moon babies
The inspiration for the article…this is mine and hits the nail on the head. With the full moon there’s a complete balance with moon energy (feminine) and sun energy (masculine) a person is pulled in two directions…perhaps a conflicting set of beliefs or life being a set of extremes. Groups of friends with nothing in common with each other. With emotions as intense as these there is as danger of disconnecting altogether and seeing themselves only through others eyes. Balance needs to be worked on and the person needs to make sure they become who they want to be not what others want then to be!
Disseminating babies
The most likely to be a star seed/ indigo child. They want to change the world from the bottom up, usually a natural communicator who wants to share their knowledge with you and listen to yours as well. There is a danger with this phase. A person can become frustrated with others if…. what they can see others cannot. This can translate into an over powering individual if or kept in check.
Last Quarter babies -Last quarter babies are the emotionally intelligent person within the pack, deeply empathetic a psychologist of sorts. This person fights for the underdogs, the misunderstood and the vulnerable. They can worry their family and friends by ‘sudden transformation’ when in fact it’s been happening behind the scenes for a vast amount of time but only the individual knew this. The draw back to being this personality if you do not take care of your own needs, ground yourself back into your reality…you may be lost in others pain and emotions.
Balsamic babies -The most likely on this list to be a spiritual guru/leader…as old soul, a wise soul in touch with spirit guides or a leaning towards a shaman connection. Intense but profound for others and a drawback for the individual as they don’t tend touch fit in…solace for some loneliness for others. A soul tribe/twin flame needs to be sought for this person.
I’ve needed to centre and heal myself today, with a cold Epsom salt bath and an hour of sacred spirit chanting. After a weekend of excesses and consecutive weekends drinking, I can honestly say I feel physically awful and mentally drained!!
It feels to me that the cold water and Epsom salts heal the energy or at least helps me to refocus on a fresh start next week.
This week after a very special Litha celebration with my local pagan friends on a sunset hill walk there’s a niggle in my mind again. I feel I’m not spending enough time on my spirituality and concentrating too much on short term escapism!
I’m wondering what sort of ritual’s and activities other pagan’s use to refocus themselves?
My soul learning…shamanism.An original book of shadows. Nearly had a goat mum, ha ha! But we couldn’t pinch it!A witch’s ritual/spell kit…a skull and poppets, she had named eni, meeni, minei, mo.A beautiful representation of the wheel of the year featuring all our pagan celebrations.Cat Magick.I knew it!! Cernnous the horned God, I do believe. Runes and Horns…what more could you need!
The pentagram, representing the basis of earth magick. The elements earth, fire, air, water and spirit.
BPD witch vs life! 